This is a poem that I wrote while cleaning the bathrooms at my last job. ( I know that is a strange place for inspiration, but thats what happened). It wasn't the actual bathroom that motivated this poem, but rather the events that happened before. I had never really felt like I was in the "in crowd" at work. I was the girl who was never invited out after work. I didn't like to do the same things that my co-workers did, I didn't like to party, or go clubbing or anything like that and I usually couldn't keep up with the conversations because they were things that I didn't know about or had never experienced. I felt like my co-workers sometimes looked at me like I was a freak.It also talks about how as a Christian, I am always going to be looked at differently because of my faith and because I don't do the things that the world does. That is what inspired this poem...
If life is a circus,
Than I am its freak show
Much like the bearded lady or ten foot tall man
No one seems to understand.
But no one ever said it would be easy
Spending my day in frustration and pain
My actions trying to explain
To a crowd who mocks and yells and laughs
Where jokes are made on my behalf
But no one ever said it would be easy
This mirage of normalcy is just out of my reach
Because I try to practice what I preach
But my reward is societal rejection
And it causes daily deep reflection
Why did He not make this easy?
Narrow is the road I travel
Filled with sticks and stones and gravel
But I know that I am in good company
For many have traveled this road before me:
Martyrs, missionaries, disciples, Christ followers.
And I know for them it wasn’t easy
But we are led by the greatest outcast of them all
Who for our sake broke down sin’s wall
If he was willing a freak to be
Than being a freak is alright with me
BB
